I just realised I would lost daddy's messages too. Better still, he won't be able to reach me at this number, zero chances of me receiving his messages. It's more difficult to let him go than letting RX go.

I lost my phone, my gum bleed profusely. I had painful cramps and a bent fingernail. I lost focus and lost sight of my goal. The depressing thing now is that when I called my phone number, it just keeps ringing. That goes to show no one took it. I rather someone steal it than knowing it is at somewhere waiting for me to retrieve it. How lonely it must be!

There is one song that kept ringing in my head for years but I don’t recall its name. However, by chance now I am using my sec3 phone, I realized that that song is still in that phone and it is called Sundial Dreams. Now I want the album, The Enchanted Garden, by Kevin Kern instead of a phone. Kevin Kern! Wait for me!
And, perhaps, LG arena.
Oh, and this time, I shall pay for my own phone bills. =D

I had a receipt that showed that I spent $100++. Sok spent $20 initially at Purpur while browsing the clothes again. A poster said that if you spent above $100 in 1 receipt you can get membership card. I thought to myself ‘That’s impossible for us. We barely spent $20 and need another $80. Crazy?’ Then Sok also noticed that poster and asked me to spend that $80 which I refused. I encouraged her to instead. While she tried on other clothes and me waiting, the sales assistant who served us came to me to introduce me some clothes. I rejected her saying that I had blah blah. She went to pick a dress and said that dress would be just right. By a glance I knew I won’t like that dress. Still, while waiting for Sok for so long I might as well try. I tried. Guess what? Sok came out, saw me wearing that dress, she exclaimed loudly. Haha both of us couldn’t recognize it was me wearing that. I bought it along with a belt. Sok’s spending and mine add together was more than what is needed for us to become members. Haha. One card, both of us share. Amazing. I shall stop shopping for 1.5 months.

Last week in service 3 testimonials shared about parents and cancer patients and how they were saved before their last breathe. I cried. Then my cell members told me recounts of people praying for 20, even 50 years before their parents were saved. Now, I am praying every night and count it. I will knock until the door is open.

Soeng May gave me a treat at Pizza Hut after service. It was great! We tried the crunchy pizza with all 3 types of cheese. Totally awesome! The only difficulty eating it was looking at it and thinking it looked like chicken feet.
After the main dish, we had the mouse looking dessert. It was vanilla ice cream with Oreo ears and raisin eyes and nose. When the waitress brought it to us, she accidently dropped the Oreo. I instantly said ‘The mouse dropped a ear!’ Then the 3 of us laughed so badly. Lol.

I have yet to finish the cake which Rhon made. It’s really sweet so I am trying to save it for the next day and the next. =)
Though I had one ice cream for B&J, 3 from Swesens with 2 days last week, I still crave for more. Owe YQ one. =] and Tricia too.
Tomorrow I want my pizza hut for dinner.
25% of my blog is all about food. Sigh.

I really miss baby Ian when he wasn't around today. Actually, he could have finished his unfinished pile of centre works today since he has no school today meaning no homework and more free time. =(

Friday is the special day of a week for me. I would tend to be more motivated to live the day well because I know the next day there would be service. However, today was a different Friday. From this Friday onwards, every Friday I would end work at 6.15pm. That gives me more than enough time to go for cell without being late. The thought of being with the cell members give me a sense of unexplained happiness, security and peace.

That’s all I can do, to think about it. I can’t really attend cell because I would be home late and my parents would not be happy. Then, if they questioned who was I with, how am I supposed to answer them? I wonder if that is my excuse instead of a reason and consulted Sok. One reply from her was enough. It goes something like ‘It’s okay, don’t have to feel bad. I know how your mum is like.’

Every Friday and other nights, I will listen to worship songs to seek comfort. I have to read bible in my phone. I have to pray in the washroom. Do you have any idea how much I long for to openly do these?

I am not strong willed. When I am tired of doing those, I stopped in my way. I turned away.

It’s a long journey.

This week was like a roller coaster ride for me. Starting of the week I was very ill, leaving my workplace early to rest at home on Monday and losing control over the kids on Tuesday. Then, on Wednesday, I had a good rest. That day the centre celebrated Monster’s birthday and we had a long treasure hunt game. Laughter was filled in the air and I was feeling much better. Thursday was a ‘mess’! It’s April’s Fools Day and the centre celebrated my birthday. -.- The kids thought I was born on that day. No way! I got cream on my face and hair thanks to my colleagues. I hid in the cubicle and one of them still splash water on me. The other one offered to help me to wash my hair but she wasn’t good at it at all. Urgg. Thank God I brought life concert shirt.
I went to SA by 966 with my creamy hair and hungry stomach. Jie brought things for me to bath but I didn’t because I thought the concert would start on time. In the end I had 45mintues to bath and I didn’t. -.- Life concert was great! It ended with people asking for encore and the band was spontaneous enough to let us choose songs. Haha. Thank God I was somehow recovered before life concert itself so that I could sing out loud.
Haha.

Good Friday service was really long; it lasted for 3 hours. I had to admit I did not really pay attention but at least I prayed and asked Jesus to travel back time with me to the time He was down on Earth. Hehs. After service, the cell went for a lunch. Following which, 4 of us went to Vivo City and had a awesome chat. Ben’s & Jerry’s! Ok. I reached home by 5, ordered my dad to prepare the dinner I desired then go to West Mall and meet Sok at Swesen’s. Thanks to Sok we had free banana spilt. I was enjoying my time with her until something happened. It was so embarrassing. I was reading a message and trying to figure out the meaning of a word as I was walking towards a glass door apparently. Sok pulled me. Nonetheless, I still knock into that glass door. (my hands first though because my instinct asked me to do that) Haha and the waitress asked if I was okay. I simply laughed and left.

News began to spread about people receiving universities letter of acceptance. It was a little depressing then I prayed against it.

I M POSSIBLE was an activity to let the church had a feel how it feels like to go for a mission. The committee planned it extremely well! They had COR air ticket, passport, VISA, Changi Airport Posters, signs that said ‘Gate C25’, ladies in air stewardess clothes, masks, life jackets blah blah. They looked so professional! Wow. It was a learning experience. Even though we may treat it just as a game, at the minimum we really learnt the importance of taking care of our own things, example, our passports. >.-

This morning I woke up at 6 to go for Easter service. The sermon was really interesting. I agree with him about Jerusalem first, then Mickey Mouse. (He was saying we should go there and strengthen our faith before enjoying ourselves.) The cell had lunch then they prayed for me before I left to join Rhon, Dona, Rach and Su. We had Sushi but too early for the buffet. Rhonda made a cake for me! Haha! Awesome! I praised her and put away my usual criticizing attitude for her. Haha. Cool.