It is really hard to satisfy anyone. You can always joke to make that person smile. You can always be there when s/he cries. Yet if that person just suddenly doesn’t tell you anything and you don’t want that person to be unhappy, you are at lost. You would have problems talking to that person. You would suddenly lose your patience. Who can really supports a friend forever at all times? Have you ever experienced this? Once you met this person, you just confirmed, this person will be yours always? However, after years, somebody will come and fight to have what you have? I had this problem, I had given up. There is no point fighting. Though I am living in reality and I think logically, I never act properly. I always believe in what I believe. I don’t care if those were really fairy tales, myths etc, I just choose to believe. I believe that this person will stay with me always, just 2 together, yet it turned out to be a temporary story. Should I ask if I am worth to be on this earth? I also believe that everyone on this earth has a part, a role to play, everyone is needed, yet I think, I am not one. I met a lot of friends, all different personalities. Last year, everyone was SO close to me, so close that I know everyone’s secret! Yet this year, many are trying to hide things from me. I don’t spread secrets; I don’t think I had done anything wrongly. I don’t understand why some people, my friends, just think that I am not worth any of their news. Is it in their eyes, I had become a busybody, or demanding person? Or rather, I am just one who they can pull me or push me whenever they like? If they really think so, they are so inhuman. I am hurt by them. I told sab, I had decided I’m just a loner. Like what Mr. Cheng had told me, everyone is single, everyone got to be independent. He told me that everyone that I know, they will always be there to support me when I am down. All this seems to be lies. I know I am selfish, I only know what I want but never think for others. I did, but I never put in it action. I know all my friends are facing lots of problems this year, they are so stressed up. Comparing them to me, I should count myself lucky. But, does anyone understand, once you process it, and you just lose it without any reason, you just, cannot take it? ,.,.,.,.,.,.,. R e a l I t Y S u c k s ,.,.,.,.,.,.,.
Monday, July 03, 2006
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Hui Ling 040491
really really wants 'Marrying Mozart'
Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
