Group 7 (yaya)
Group 8 (CCH)
Look at JieH. (crazy or what?)
Well, today marks the 8th year after my grandpa passed away. Should I talk about him? Hmmm.
My mum is very disappointed and sadden by the fact that I care more about RX than my grandpa. Well, I didn't tell her what cause me to hate my grandpa. (all because he hurt her)
It's not as though I never love him. Please. Come on. I was very very close with my thai relatives, especially my grandparents. I had a picture whereby I was 3, (I think), whereby my grandpa was carrying me and I bit his nipple. (er...) I like to bite his nipple. I don't know why. My grandma? How about me and her? I kept searching the storeroom and took out her heels to play.
Then at 8 or 9, at Chaing Mai, I witnessed a fight(worst) between him and mum. Well, then mum always told me about stories and I didn't witness only 1 fight. (I got over it. kind of.) Yupp. The thing is, you tell me so many things that you are hurt by them, how do I love them? (that tells me my mum still don't know how much I love her. stupid.) raa. Forget it. Ever since, I cannot stand to even look at my grandparents. However, when they passed away, do you think my heart aches? HAHA> My mum don't think so. She didn't see the tear in my eyes, she can't feel the pain in me, better still, she never manage to take away the transparent mask I have on my face. If she did, she can touch my face, and get the feel of the sorrows in me. Forget it.
My grandparents and my gay cousin always bring me to this vast greenland(celebrations are normally held here) near the temple(the most sinificant?) to fly kite. Always without fail. Kites. Haha. That is how I wrote a touching chinese compo about kite. Haha.x
Kites. I once own 2 kites, both are gone. Where are they? I don't know. I never know. My lovely kites.
Whatever. Pain. Ouch. Haha.x Emo. RAA. (I should stop saying raa. ws says it is so much better. my raa is filled with pain. lol)
I wonder where are you guys? You guys are my precious men now. But all of you are separated. I wonder if I still have the chance to see you guys again. Mama said you, you, you, you and you scolded her, disregard her. Only you did not change. Where are you guys? Still remember me? Will you guys heartlessly forget your only female cousin still living in SIngapore? Well you guys horribly disregard me when we meet again? Will I ever have the chance to hear my nieces and nephews calling my 'bah wii'?
~He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me, He will be my guide, hold me closely to His side, with love and strength for each new day, He will make a way, He will make a way~
