lols, BoA's song NO.1 keeps ringing in my head...
you are still my number one

I am tired, because my passion is not being shared here. I am tired because it looks like I have to forsaken my desires.

I am, very attached to GB. Haha, eh I think through my blog you can learn a lot about me leh.

Dots. kk, it will be my diary.

I had a chat with someone just now. That person is someone whom influence me a lot. I don't deny that I feel very attached to her when we are friends.

Did God send her into my life? We shared about our walk with God, and once again she is different from the previous time when she told me she wanted a simple life and so she chose to walk that road. She hoped that I would not be affected and I reassured her that I would not, in fact I wait for her to be back again.

Whatever it is, she put the thoughts I had into words which make it clearer to me.
GB. Why do I want to go back so much? My answer was to equip the girls thoroughly with drills skills. However, she emphasized that it was because of Him. Isn't it?

YES. I want to serve God. Knowing that I can't serve Him though Church, I jumped at every opportunity to serve God. That is why I took SFC.

When I go for SFC meetings, it hit me that I wanted to bring God's word to my company. Nonetheless, that slipped out of my mind when I see the girls. No wonder, I always find that, teaching it right or not, I am not satisfied.

I even wanted to suggect to SFC that maybe we can bring God's words to GB/BB and come up with activities.

Then I realise, that is what I wanted for MY OWN company itself.

I used to hate HQ so much. I really did, I couldn't stand the sight of the Mdms, the companies
which behaved like HQ which handles things so weirdly. I even hated the smell of HQ. Come to think of it, they have their reasons in doing so.

Don't you find GB set aparts themselves well?
Not that in Kranji!

The motto of GB is, to seek, serve and follow Christ and the aim was to see girls to be followers of Christ and thorugh self-discipline, with a sense of responsibility...

I don't remember the other words.

Look, that's what GB all about.

GB meetings are supposed to include drills, games, badgework and devotion.
Have we forgotten our basic, foundations, roots?

I support the idea of changing our company to be more like HQ. If other companies, (ok, like this particular company with non-christians), can bring God's word and even believe and follow them so much, and are successful, why can't we?

Has the heart of following the world, chasing and persuing success, derailed us from seeing what's planned for us/ what we really want to do?

Believe in God or not, I think that is one thing to consider.

Why did I wrote those? crap. hahas.

I desire for money. I desire for clothes. I desire for beauty. I desire for his heart.
(like all girls do)
but they are not God's desires.

Am I willing to give up my desires up and picked up the cross and follow Christ?
No. but I try.

Oh I understand why I ask that question le! Haha. think about it la.
I think...

I am going crazy. Haha!

if it's the old me, I will go walau eh! What's with this person man? so religious. why must she make herself go through so much? always do things for God.
He is the answer. Not influenced by by fellow-silbing, not influenced by WS, but by God's word, who swept my feet off. Haha.

he too... for all I know, he, carries a very heavy weightage in my heart. dann it.. sheesh!

pray hard. I shall go to see their NDP's training. Who knows? Maybe I get the chance to give commands to whole UGs?! LOL! Waaa, if that happen I will be so damn happy I might jump jump JUMP off the second floor accidently. lols. eh so cool ar!!!!!! My gosh. Haha..

All that Xia Chen's fault, of he last year didn't sour me for getting to be the marker, the person who gives command to pandan kekan-nan the contigents while they march off.

lols. what am I crapping?

just now saw Kiki!!! I felt that she is more tame today. or actually, you seems emo. Why? Haha. Nvm, ya I don't like Kiki. I don't think so, but I feel attached to it leh... haha...
=D.
but just now kiki very cute. smiles*

I WANT A DOG! Haha.

And shall name it xiao.. nah. LOL!!!!

no NANAs!.
daJIE reminded me something. haha.

kk, AND THAT LYNN! SHE... raa! Hahaha, so what if he was near to you? I don't care le. Haha... but I miss him a lot. my sweet, sour, bitter daddy.

really a lot, when I think of him.

you linger in my mind

oh dear, just realise I started with such a random sentence. BoA's songs are nice!!! woots!

oh, street market. great. the start was horrible. talk about it tml.

coughing coughs cough. dann.

you are still my number one!

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