Last week Jie finally entered army, less messages for me and less replies required from me. Yay. Hahaha. Sian. His sergeant officer's name is Alvin; out of all names, Alvin. -.-
Early in the morning on Friday, I had to meet Jie to pass him my uniform for Su to help me sell. She managed to sell within minutes and I earned $30 bucks from selling my uniform. Great sale! Haha. Anyway, I went off to Woodlands Regional Library to borrow Nancy Drew game. Location of the disc is J AV. I went to consult the librarian and he just told me 4th floor. Then I understand that J AV is Junior Section AV. -.- Come to think of it, if I really ask for a book or something, will they be able to find it
What if there wasn't any computer records? Hmmm.
Read there for a while then went to work.
There is this worksheet that my P2 kids get, titled show and tell, it's something like oral presentation. The requirements are pretty much the same, but their topics are much simpler. It surprised me how advanced is the education system. I mean my batch had op in secondary and now they are having it in primary school, lower primary in fact. That's fast.
Ian Wong, my cheeky, smiley boy, he chose the topic 'Hobbies'. He didn't know what to write so I had to start him with questions. 'What is your hobby?' Then his answer amazed and froze me, 'bowling lor'. 2 short words is enough to give me a hard impact. Come to think of it, I don't think that older one likes it since first try? Do you? This baby Ian like bowling since his first try. Haha.
I can assure you, the impact is real huge. Haha.
Friday night, I joined Tricia's cell. It happens that that night it was Pastor's visit to this cell too. Cool! Haha. Before that they emailed their questions to Pastor so that he can answer them during cell. Some of the questions I thought of it too. Eg, Image of God = ligaments, bones, body? Haha.
Honestly, I love Pastor's wife. Hahaha. Kinda cool, I learn a lot, but I didn't take notes now I am worried I will forget them.
Guess what I am struggling with now is to put words in actions.
Oh right, I really wonder who bring the driver of the last train/bus home? Can't possibly they take cabs right? It is plausible they live near the terminal statons but... so how is it like? I am ultra curious.
I gave a call to someone really special. There was a sudden stronge urge for me to call her and have a chat with her like how we used to do donkey years ago. All this while I always felt that I had failed to play my part as a friend, not to mention we were really really close.
Finally finished watching the whole series of Left Behind. It left me with God. I prayed.
Yesterday I had to read my old blog to recite stories for Jie. There I paddled back the memory lane and sink deeper into those memories. Time spent together is really an essence for lasting friendships. There was so much fun I had with GB, really the 5 teammates. Lynn and Xin Di also had played major roles in my life, even Nette's bag. It's like all those little things that we had done that kept us together that time. Without those, everything doesn't hold anymore. Other than friendships, there, I talked a lot about studies, I could see my old self in Mayee. Then, there was Pastor Ben and reading bible and, God. After prayer, think through and then I made the call. After which, I went to the washroom and cry. Life's a joke. Toliet is always the place where I read my bible or talk to God. Unpleasent, maybe but enclosed, solitude, safe. Through a movie and books, I returned. This is definitely not the idea I had or what I expected or wished for but it's a way after all. Thus now, at least I find my restplace again when I think of my job, my result, my future.
Thank you Maeh Maeh, you helped me a lot.
Well on a casual note, sometimes I really wondered if I will 'fil' with my beloved Jie. LOL. The reason I wondered was we really got very close recently. Then I realised, I already had. He really took the single place in my heart... =) as a belovent and understanding and a good-to-bully brother. I had always longed for one. I know it's very seldom I praise someone, shutup, but ya... Guess today... reflective day.
Add on: To be honest, before I fil, I will picture how would it be like if we walked tgt and well, annoying is just so not my type. Ha. I am saying this here because I wanted to tell you on the phone but... wasn't in good mood ya.
I went to Lynn’s house to study. Jia Qi has a sad tuition! She looked so crush walking behind her tuition teacher and she asked me to frequent her house to help her in math. -.- For someone so tom-boyish, I never know what kind of guys she like. No guys can attract her it seems until, today I found out that she pronounced Kim Bum as her boyfriend. Haha! Gosh! Oh ya! I almost forgot what Lynn has asked me to do online. Ok done.
Marriage is a scary topic. Haha. I can imagine Lynn with her guy but cannot imagine her being a mum! I will pity her child. Haha! Sok fits in a mum role pretty well, she does house chores well. =)
Yesterday went to school taking 966 at 6.35 and I could find seat! Yay. Inspiring thing happened at Seng Kang SS, great revival. Abraham shared about 4D affecting 3D = visual/thinking affects physical world. It surprises me unsurprisingly. I’ve known that like long time ago but never really understand or absorb that fact. Great, he managed to change my way of thinking now. I can’t deny I have been daydreaming for such a long period of time and that affects me terribly. When I do questions, I am always preoccupied with something…
Oh well. There is a verse about if God care about birds surely He won’t forget us… something like that right. I didn’t really think about it until recently… Stupidly… I was just wondering how molecules in conditioner works for your hair… blah blah. Haha. Then come to think of it, if God goes to the extent of looking into atoms and molecules and numbers of strands of hair or eyebrow you have, surely problems you have He will not ignore! So cool yet frightening to know that someone knows so much. Lol.
Oh oh!!! I went to watch SM and SALVO drum compete in this pretty cool drum comp at Vivocity. I finally get to watch her FULL performance! Did you always repeat that song when you are with me because some parts sound familiar... Yay. SALVO is a group of robust youths, having fervent for chinese drums? Yupp. I was so worried that they will break the drums man!
and I skipped breakfast and lunch...
RACHEL CHAN!!! I asked Jie to go closer to the sea with me. Jie said " You cannot drop inside." It was hilarious because both of us know we can't swim. Rachel, we talked about you again. If we drop into the waters, the person cannot call 995, s/he must call you and ask you to decide who to save first. LOL.
Yea, by the time you get there we would have drown.
You sure you want to read this post? =) I try to help you highlight main points k?
I just finished bathing after reaching home. Oh well, that's beside the point. This week or these few weeks I had been terribly upset over several issues including my own walk and how things can get ugly if I want them to be. Well, such as giving attitude to people.. such as losing all my patience over some words... so...
Today I went to Mentors' room... after Shane left I cried. Ha, oh well then I wrote a letter to Eve which in the end, I didn't give. Thank God for pointing out through Evelyn about that.
I just never realise that the imperfectness I have is the reason why people say "we fall short and we need God's grace". Grace is a rather big word and now I have finally come to understand it. How amazing it is. God didn't show us our weakness so that we may turn to Him, He do so because we are really weak.
Then... I was stressed up and crap... Had a chat with Eve and sisters. I really thank God for all He has done. All of us has our time where we broke down after certain circumstances and we may even lose hope. Some people who doesn't know God or who are unable to handle well will in turn have a grumpy or negative character build up in them after the long run. On the other hand, God, being love, is able to restore what is lacking in our lives and thus also build our character. I have to admit, I have already fed the negative thoughts and turn them into my attitude. It's really bad.
At the EW/LC dinner/gathering, we had fellowship, worship and watched the video. It brought back memories and allowed us to remember the purpose again. Vera, CK a.k.a Samantha, Hilary and Shane, Evelyn and Rachel shared their thoughts/testimonials. God has pushed us to step out of our comfort zone and prove to us, if we are faithful, so will He.
We can't measure how successful the EW/LC is according to the answers to alter call. Inter-trust is important and also, embrace God's promise. God is interesting man... He is honest and He already tell us in the bible that we will grow weary and tired. However we failed to remember that and we just pray God will give us strength without actually remembering He already knows. That applies to me.
Isaiah 40 28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. 29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Embrace God's promise and hope in the Lord and that brings me to
Romans 5 3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us
Amazing ain't He?
Finally at the end of the day, Vera thought I was from J1. She pulled both my cheeks saying you are cute leh! and so nice to bully and so funny! During dinner Shane totally supports her. How nice. I am being kind ok.
AND to end off... haha. Vera, Elsa, Me and Chesed took 142 from the main gate... We sat at the seats where one pair will face the other. We chatted and suddenly Elsa realised we forgot to press the bell! Panickly, I wanted to press the bell supposedly on the window frame but it wasn't there! Chesed responded and tried to press the bell supposedly on the bar and it wasn't there either! GG! We missed the stop.
I went to attend Church of Resurrection's guest service today! 3 CHEERS!
The miraculous thing is I didn't feel as awkward as I used to feel each time I go different church, I felt strangely at home.
This week was my most terrible week of the year, even worse than the time I sprained my ankle. I even cried because I was too tired and dying for sleep, that bad. Thank God for His word on Friday and ran with me! Ha. Oh well, yesterday timing was 1516, worst timing I ever had, but still, great! Ah ma still can get GOLD k! Haha.
Thought I will share what service went through just now... should I? wait ar..
RECEIVE WITH JOY AND GROW IN SPIRIT
... I don't know how to share exactly... - God has given us the ability to generate well - do not halt what you can give to society - if you know how to be rich, you will be rich - the more given to us, we need to learn to be generous
Don't you agree that many rich has a lot but they halt what they can give and keep their riches? It's like limiting what you can do to the society..
There are more, much more...
Pastor also asked us to build each other up, encourage each other etc... then he said something real true. don't give advices, advices are cheap. give a listening ear... everyone has potential to grow...
Let's empathise, support one another and help each other grow! Yea.
You know in Matthew 25... this man given one talent but bury it... he doesn't has so called -abundance mentality- but has a scarcity mentality... which is what the world has actually... that is you tend to think you will lose everything and you behave in that way and you are actually positioning yourself in failure... which happen to the third man in the parable...
Have abundance mentality, give personal resources to others... even if you are poor, give what you have... and you will have again...
If I am happy to give, then let me.
Don't overdo something that is not you but do something that you are comfortable with. Then I thought surely if what I felt comfortable is wrong, I have faith that God will correct me. Yay.
To be back from the prep camp EW/LC is a mixture of sad and happy news. The happy thing is that I finally can bath since 3pm yesterday. The sad thing is that I missed the FD rehearsal.
It was such a great camp where Christians gathered together worshipping God, training intensively for the upcoming LC on 3 Apr and making real-life-looking artifacts and 300 over 'gifts'.
Damn crazy. Haha, seriously funny. Thank God. I seriously have no idea what to share about here today, other than telling you I got a 2.8cm in length, 1.5 cm in width blister at my left sole. Ha, how crap, I was so happy when it burst you know! Turns out that only a small hole and after 9 hours, I am still trying to get all the liquid out. Disgusting right. Haha, sorry for that gross-out info. =P
-went Chinatown right after Econs to get things with Wei Wen, Victor, Shanny -come back get mosquito bites while resting (then He made me think) -short prayer and sharing -cut ribbons register for camp! -dinner ( with groups. I was under Victor's group. He called us spillovers! so mean. Pity him, 5girls in his group, he was the only guy when James wasn't there so Vincent joined us. I become his 'Ling Mei' apprarently. =.=) -icebreakers by Aloysius the funniest guy man! lol. (musical chair, square shape and he played he sang+play guitar without playing chords. Haha!) -objectives -off you go! dance/band/learn how to make gifts, Wei Wen was very patient and encouraging -supper time, someone made very nice choco cake with rasins -sleep -wake up, prayer blah -prayerwalk (Great experience+eye opener) -games at SAJC (Gosh, the camp IC, Nat, was in charge of this particular station where it was gosh... we had to tie string around our waist, at the other end of the string is banana, hanging. LOL) -bath at 3 (last time I bath in camp) -service -dinner, make gifts etc -I had Econs consultation with this SFC teacher-Miss Yap at like 9pm plus while making the gift.LOL. -everyone was very tired, I was too until I found out ice-cream for supper! -Food IC I think.. Eliora offered me to finish the tubs of ice cream since there were many leftovers, I didn take it but Rach did and she finished it in front of me. I couldn't control my expression when Theodore(Mentor) kept on saying things that had to admit. Haha, I was like arhh why finish that tub of ice cream.. I want it. lol I want to kill you!Haha, of course, that's crap la. -sleep -wake up, service, realised I got big fat blister. -went to SA CC -pizza for dinner!
Today I stepped into this shop which sells Christian products and I was marvelled by the books. Eve, I introduced my friend the book you got for me, and she is reading it for the second time. so cool. Sok wants to get another one for my BD. I can't wait!
I am finishing the book I using for QT and had been searching for another book. One cost $8, I like it but didn't buy it. Another cost $5 plus, I didn't buy it. I bought the one which cost me $21 at the shop today.
At the cover page it says:
God grant me the SERENITY to accept the thing I cannot change, the COURAGE to change the things I can and the WISDOM to know the difference.
I didn't like the colour of the book but the words represent my cry each day.
I bought another book which shares about God's grace. Oh ha, I told Sok I wish to have a pastor at my house so that I can hear from him everyday.
Come to think of it, might as well wish for more. =P k. I am just not feeling well.. knowing that I'd made quite a few mistakes... which are not going to make me dwell in guilt.
Anyway, I went out with Sok again! LOL. I think I might meet her next week too
Busy week... I have 4 people turning 18 this coming week, including one animal also my 'sis'. LOL.
Thinking of getting assessment book and I need model essays to read. -living on a borrowed time-
I like my valentine's gift, thanks peep.
oh and.. I am sorry or rather... james I don't deserve the gift you gave me and Sok. You should pass it to May. lol. I am feeling so bad now. my gosh. ok nvm...
You don't often get to choose the people that come into your life, but sometimes you get awefully lucky. I cannot make you believe that you are special because I want it so but it isn't so. Dear friend, you carry more significance, really; I want it to be so. No reason why, you can't explain life don't you? I shall take time to know you better.
When my parents and I were watching this TV show our big day on Channel 8, my mum made a lot of 'noise'. The festival was celebrated by the Phillipines relating to Christianity. Her accusing words were all wrong and I really want to tell her so much it's about transorming lifes and not about God being d-o-g instead.
It just irritates me when her friends apparently go to church but their lifes are pretty screwed.
Apparently I realise my mum's heart is hardened is not the obstacle, it's the lack of knowledge she has about Christianity that results in her absolute disbelief.
I shall pray for no more softeners but a righteous friend to be with her.
Damn it, you know this guy kinda irritated me. Reason: He made me feel search wiki, nasa and so on websites about nebulas, galaxies.
Terrible! Haha. He actually inspired me to go USA one day, step into NASA, ask for a job without pay for a month or two. If they reject my resume, I just have to fight on, at least, try.
You think I will do it? Maybe, when I get older.
What a surprise we had when we stepped into this room where Rachel's church event will be carried out, the decorations were grand! Dim lights, christmas trees, red carpet, a little gold here and there and people were dressed in formal clothes.
Youths. Wow. The event started out with icebreakers which Jie and Ah-ee played the first one. Haha. Something about using props creatively. Another games was to get someone to guess the who is in the picture behind him.
I like the awards ceremony best. First, there was a short video about Christ, second the mc for the ceremony had a very mc voice. lol. Rach's church was very creative to use awards ceremony to share about Birth of Christ! One of the awards was given to King Herod for being the most evil, inhuman whatever. COol.
No, that wasn't exactly the best. The ultimate best, was the Indescribable video. above
Gobsmacked. This guy managed to send across the message of how small we are very well. Most importantly, the size of God is beyond imagination! What the... He showed us a lot of pictures that people calls them God's eyes. All are impossibly breath-taking, but one was insanely...
In the core of Whirpool galaxy which is 23 million light-years away is
A 'X' maybe, yea but I choose to believe other way. Look at the length and breadth la.
That was... I don't know what else is there to say. Watch the video alright.
RACHEL, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE INVITATION!!! Accept my heartfelt thanks.
No offense in comparing churchs ok. I think I like Rach's church the best! Of course not the 1hr15min trip haha. I just don't feel awkward there, probably because seeing how Rach this cell leader is still so Rachel in her church. Haha she screamed! at everyone who exclaimed about her wearing dress. HAHA!
It was really nice. God must have done something. I almost wanted to sms Rach and tell her I don't want to go. Nonetheless, I went, and everything makes me feel comfortable. That's the thing. Haha.
OH YQ! You didn't go! Your friend went la! Alpha! Haha. I was so shocked to see her there.
HAPPY 81th BIRTHDAY KELVIN YAP WEI QUAN THE KFC COLONEL LOOK ALIKE.
I was blaming someone for something yesterday. Haha I hope he wouldn't mind. shanny. hahaha.
How I wish some people wouldn't come and read. No offense I am not chasing people off, I am just being very shy. I am open to my feelings and sometimes, I am too sweet I guess and can be disgusting. lol. If I am an outsider reading this blog, I will most probably say EU, this person is so fake.
Yesterday when I saw Shane, I was super happy. And then stepped into the room and I saw Evelyn! Haha, followed by mama and Samantha! So cool.
Then you take a look again, so Rachel, Chesed, Mr Yit was there too and all the other SFC people. Great! It's like another big gathering! haha.
To be very honest with you, I haven't feel attached to SFC yet but seeing these people is like seeing your family members back again after staying aboard for months or something. I do miss them you know. What the.
If that is what God meant by loving one another, using terms sisters and brothers, I thank Him.
Doing and trying. That's the problem. I know I've been trying to do so and so, but, it's not exactly doing. You kinda helped me to make a decision. Another person told me about surrendering to God. Another person told me it might be a painful progress and she tried to do it with me.
Something have been bothering me even much more and yesterday I told myself, be one and not try to be a Christian. After which I was telling God the terrible words and violent images that kept flashing in my mind. Do you know that is so difficult? Woah. Then amazingly everything just blank out. Those words, I could no longer find and put them together. Those images, no longer form to disturb me.
I was wondering if that is because... sometimes we need to speak out to release the bottled erupting emotions. Then we speak to people and we feel better. Nonetheless, I believe it's Him. Because knowing God knows practically everything you've done and thought, there's no way you can hide and then, you just re-tell Him so that He could take it when you laid it down. When it comes to friends, we might still limit what we are going to tell them in case we made them turn away. Arh ya then people will probably say, that is not your true friend then.
I don't think so. It's just coming down to human nature.
crap crap time. I realise I described LYNNs dressings to the national library without explanation to why I suddenly said that. Well, cherry red long dress, black tank top. PLUS, a horizontally striped cherry red/white cardigen PLUS, cherry red toe nail colour.
By looking at her I feel giddy. lol. Oh she only wore the cardigen in the library.
The below is seriously crapping for crappies. lol.
I received 2 complains from this 2 girls who said that I always portrait them as evil saints in my life. lol! like big bully.
Well, other than bullying, they are lovely. They understand me in-out and always stand by me.
(rollmyeyes.)
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IS IT TO WRITE THESE KIND OF THINGS?! lol!
Let's see. One is the type where by using one call, you can get her out to walk with you and listen to you. She is the type who scold and scold and scold if I am dumb. Her advices are very sharp, never fails to hit the nail on the head. Another one is if you are down, she will be there soothing you, then if I am dumb, she will remind me to look at my situation again and will not give up on me. She knows me so well she will adjust her solutions abit so that I can take it.
Sometimes, description fails. At least my do. It sucks I know. so please, if ppl like Sok reads this, please do not complain and ask me to write something nice about you. LOL.
so I realise, I never post those good things which you all done. Well, those things, touched my heart, and stayed there. =)
Don't you agree that we appreciate our friends a lot? We never said today probably thinking each other doesn't need it verbally and hoping each other could see through actions. Perhaps, today you can try and say 'I thank you, friend, for being one' or 'I love you.' to somebody. It's always nice.
And I am tempted to do it and don't want to reply that person.
But that kinda remind me of people using jared's phone as prank. lol. Old times.-.-
Can I Have This Dance (HSM3) Take my hand Take a breath Pull me close And take one step Keep your eyes Locked on mine And let the music be your guide.
Won't you promise me (Now won't you promise me) That you'll never forget (We'll keep dancing) To keep dancing Wherever we go next
*It's like catching lightning The chances of finding someone Like you It's one in a million The chances of feeling the way We do And with every step together We just keep on getting better So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?) Can I have this dance?
Take my hand I'll take the lead And every turn Will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, Afraid to fall You know I'll catch you Through it all
And you can keep us apart (even a thousand miles can keep us apart) cause my heart is wherever you are
*
Oh, No mountain's too high enough Oceans too wide Cause together or not Our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour What we have is worth fighting for I know I believe That we were meant to be, Yeah,
It's like catching lightning The chances of finding someone Like you (Like you) It's one in a million The chances of feeling the way We (way we do) do
And with every step together We just keep on getting better So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?) Can I have this dance? Can I have this dance? Can I have this dance?
haha, blame it on Jie Jie. cut short the lyrics on his blog. -.-
Worship course was great and I'd gained a lot from it. The burden was taken off after I managed to said out what I think about my walk to someone who is a Christian. Walk with God is indeed hard without friends around and I remembered He said "let us not forget meeting up, as some are in the habit of doing so, but encourage one another daily - the more as you see the day coming." Sometimes I really feel tiresome making time for SFC lunches. Haha they never fail to crash with my other activities but ok... I realise I never touch the context before that verse. I better go check.
Anyway, I shared with them a part of testimony and I felt like, it was more like a hasty decision telling them then asking God to get me say what I should say. It's pretty confusing.
Let's just say, for a moment I don't think she mind that I shared her testimony with God's people. Or rather, I think if her, well, it's still a very hard thing for me to say, death, brings me the realisation that God is really there. What's wrong with it? Ok you may disagree, I can't blame you. I hated God for wait, in sec3&4 until june this year, so I understand how you feel. However first thing you must understand is that God doesn't promise blessings always and will make sure tomorrow you have outdoor games and it won't rain, but He promise, even if there is rain, He provides a shelther. Meaning, God can still give you curses, punishments, to discipline the others or to reveal some lessons to others. It is not bad. Things happened are not entirely bad, unfortunate, it is really how you handle them. You must believe, God provides a way. Of course to take it or not...
Woah. WT.
I am writing now to remind me a lot of things. Pardon me.
Oh Lord You’ve searched me You know my way Even when I fail You I know You love me
Your holy presence Surrounding me In every season I know You love me I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee Where Your blood was she'd for me There’s no greater love than this You have overcome the grave Your glory fills the highest place What can separate me now
You go before me You shield my way Your hand upholds me I know You love me
You tore the veil You made a way When You said that it is done
And when the earth fades Falls from my eyes And You stand before me I know You love me I know You love me
It was a terrible weekend other than going SM's house. I wrote down what I want, desire VS what God wants.
Realisation came upon me that I have been walking unsteadily this year because I didn't know what I want so I have no idea what to do. It was a mixture of what I want and what God wants.
It was amazing to see how God's desires is really cohesive. Ok, not a very good word.
I listened to another recording and this pastor said something which caught my attention. (I was reading times.) He said: It is not you who have the strength to hold on to His hands. It is Him who hold yours. And once He holds yours, He will never let go!
Wow. I was amazed by that which once again reminded me that it is not based on my desire or my will to come upon this place where I really have to surrender.
Meanwhile, I hate to lose. Ha.
And the pastor said: didn't take the step because we want to escape from hell. We didn't take the step because we don't want to be with the devil. We came here because we know that God loves us! It is His love that...
Well, then there comes the song which 'pop' to my mind. So there goes...
Ha, while looking at the proposal done by my juniors, I was thinking of PW's proposal and our batch's proposal. And I find it fun to give comments. WTH. Ha, but of course, GB's proposal is easier to edit and format. YAI!
I forgot to talk about the trip in Science Centre. Maybe tonight or later or I don't know when. Other than a few pics, I remembered DaJie remarked that I was very unglam when we played this machine in Science Centre. Oh well, it's me again. Ha...
Well, but I see things clearer each time but the more I see, the more I ask.
And while I am waiting for an answer, I doubt, I believe.
I haven't finish listening to the total surrender sent by Chesed. I barely listened thrice of the first 24 minutes.
But I know, I am being stubborn all over again.
you give, then you take back, you give, then you take back YEA, how you know I am doing that?
I am not brooding over my results anymore, great news ain't it?
I really hate Newton's third law, quite a few unhappy things surfaced, beyond my control and attempt to hide them.
Maybe I have no life in JC but I see different people, as in, in secondary school, it seems like we are the same, we share same love to teachers, same love for our school, similar way of getting high but in JC, everyone is so different and no one, no one, decide to love again.
The above sentence was abit too long.
There are people who are so oblivious to others' feelings, there are people who gave their all to show that they care. There are people who shut themselves to books,(and I really meant, SHUT->locked up) and there are those who still have fun amid stress. ( i think)
There are hypocrites and sincere people.
I am, not used to that, seeing these strangers everyday with no hint of friendiness or anyone initating to smile.
I am bias and focusing on some people only alright.
WAIT, but I remembered my VP telling us to blog happy things.
lol. I don't know what to say. I guess, I just want to say, I am determined not to give up. As in, I am determined to work harder, to be smarter to be more ignorance to mean and evil things around me but be the best that I can.
I am not going to give up GB because I love the girls and it's a family. Do you think I will give up working for my sisters' growing process? I am not going to moan and groan despite the stress or business coming ahead. Haha.
And of course, I will never give up God even if it means giving up my precious things. It easier said than done but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (<- No mistake, it's a verse)
SFC. God didn't put me there because He wants me to be in it just like that. He wants me to know Him so much better and bring what I learnt to our company.
I don't think joining any other CCAs can help me to lead worship and share God with GB girls. =)
These things are great because I have hope.
Stay hopeful, stay positive. It's not the end of your life. There are things that may happen which may cause you to detour from your way to your dreams but so? That doesn't mean you can't walk back, all it takes is COURAGE.
WTH, I doubt you read my blog.
As for me, I was telling myself, God won't love someone more just because he got extra rank point and bless him more, but He loves us because we are His children AMEN!
woosh. Somehow, I think I am a bit obsessive doing these.
LOL.
I MISS SM, I don't deny that. Haha. shhhh... and xixi too. and kiki. =)
AND RACH! NO DIRTY TOILETS!!!!!! MY GOSH! HAHA!
I really look forward to mum's nod to allow me to attend church. And I look forward in joining Rach's church, even a day and perhaps Miss Leong's too. Woosh!
And I wish that these can happen this year, just let me be a little bit more hopeful...
I can't believe the way Your love has got a hold on me Each morning I wake to find You near You lift me above my fears And set my feet on solid ground All of my days belong to You And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart You are my all consuming fire I stand here before You In wide opened wonder Amazed at the glory of You The power of heaven Revealing Your purpose in me As I'm reaching for You
-reaching for you
another song to be loved.
I find it too late. Don't you think so? After doing it for years, causing so much hatred due to misunderstanding, and here you are explaining... At the moment, it frustrates me more you know.
The worse thing is when you compare yourself to others, thinking that you are better than them, but actually, I am not like their children so it's different, and you cause me the most stress.
I just want to ask for God's grace to let me fathom this life.
Phil 4:4-8 4 Always be joyful because you belong to the Lord. I will say it again. Be joyful. 5 Let everyone know how gentle you are. The Lord is coming soon. 6 Don't worry about anything. Instead, tell God about everything. Ask and pray. Give thanks to him. 7 Then God's peace will watch over your hearts and your minds because you belong to Christ Jesus. God's peace can never be completely understood. 8 Finally, my brothers and sisters, always think about what is true. Think about what is noble, right and pure. Think about what is lovely and worthy of respect. If anything is excellent or worthy of praise, think about those kinds of things. 9 Do what you have learned or received or heard from me. Follow my example. The God who gives peace will be with you.
ok, haha, God is fast. Like I just go bible . com and I come across that. Alright. Haha.
Ah ha, changed my blogskin. It's red.. and it reminded me of Shane. He said before something like red is the devil's colour blah blah.
Not true right? haha, I shall check it again.
Anyway, things kinda went crazy yesterday. Well, evidence? I went home by at 1am plus.
You can imagine how loud my mum shouted through the phone, the more when I told her that I was walking back from Pheonix.
The worse thing was my dad shouted too. That's really a ZOMgosh shock.
Well...
Nonetheless, they worried more than angry so they didn'y reprimand me as much as I expected.
Phew.
And after a long week of rebellious acts this morning I woke up with a clear mind, read the bible and confess my mistakes. Like, erm, 7 of them. Hmmm. Tough one.
One will always be there.
Oh well.
BUT, God restores the peace in me as He had metioned in Isisah 57 when the man walks in His way that man has peace. (interpret it)
And, ha, it was... pleasing. Haha.
oh well.
LYNN! I am reading the moon and I didn't cry! Well, I only %&%$^# (& at the hero of the story. Haha.
Ok, where should I start from?
Long story.. Beware, well, as usual..
Seriously, I don't know WS has the phone for what purpose; I called her several times and she never picked up and the service woman speaks in Chinese!
请在吡一声留言
=.='''lll
Anyway, then yadayada SM and I were supposed to get KFC while belle and WS went to get the drinks.
When WS walked away, I smugged and told SM see her phone is now with me, seriously, why did she get this phone for? haiyo
LOL.
Then we met CCH, sarah and went to SM's house!
ARH HA, KIKI!!!
KIKIKIKI! Sighs, she is really a bitch lor, when she saw CCH she ignored us. Seriously Kiki...
We watched Helen, the fox and my gosh the little boy was full of imagination! Ok whatever.
Then SM went to work while Belle, WS and I went to IMM.
And back to Lot1 to pick SM up from work.
SM was so mean! We stood outside her shop and she told her college that she don't know us. Ha! MEANIE!
I got my large double choc!
We went to SM's house again... Ha, I really treat her house as my own le la. I love it! Maybe I should move in with SM soon.
Too much details can kill.
Anyway, I only remembered somethings like WS said she would go broke if she have to keep me because I eat 5 meals a day. (ya right)
And what about sarah? haha, I think at the end of the show she asked if the little kid was a girl or boy. LOL.
And...
I have no idea what to highlight. Well, I saw daddy! Like, you know like dann?! Haha, and he asked me to eat more. DOTS.
didn't really know what to do because my choice was avoid him at all cost.
I love this. Yea I cropped it. Hehs.
Actually, come to think of it, I have never tried running in the streets after midnight rushing home, it was a totally new experience! Nonetheless, I learnt that I was really wrong making my parents so worried and I kinda said a quiet prayer for God to forgive me.
Well, as for GB. I...
have no idea what to do.
The more we think, the more we do flashbacks and backpaddle, the more we realise we have no control over the situation and you know, I want to give up, give it to God but now... I don't whether God wants to work through me or you know let go, He has His plans that kinda thing.
Ok, I love bradley LTC handwriting.
Another thing I am so glad is having my friends around. People like fish, WS, rach and SFC people motivates me to walk closely to God, people like WS, SM Belle teaches me how to sacrifice for love while LYNN, SOk, they are my growing companions. Ain't that great? While, JC people, they kinda show me how realistic life is.
They are all teaching me, and also, God who saves me from the deep pit.
I just threw, okay not really but I decided to sell it to the newspaper collector so yupp, you should be thankful and celebrating.
LOL.
Good job.
You know what? God amazed me totally. I was packing my packed-by-mama=mixing subjects time-room and someone spring to my mind. IN the midst of chaos in my room I sat in peace at the bed praying for her. And painfully sent her a 4msg long message. (arh! a slice of H20melon gone!) To my surprise she needed it just at that point!
WOO! As in... you know this person... she don't usually come to me and say huiling I yadada when she feels troubled or stressed up so I can't really perdict what she might face.
Nonetheless, just now, I hit it on the nail! Haha, God is such a loving daddy! He knows and He helped swiftly. WOOH!
hahaha... somehow, somewhat, I still cannot detach myself from... how about writing daily and knowing that this person will read and reply... and that person is DC! ha- arh haha... He's a rare gem, a hunk and one who grooms me a lot. What a teacher. lol.
A teacher's job is only to do one thing, but his heart is after many which leads to molding of lifes.
F1 got me very excited. Hamilton is cool! Don't you find the sound the engine produces very...
excites me alot but the middle 30 plus rounds bore me I guess. whatever.
mum was funny. she said short people cannot drive F1. and dad add on - because they can't step on the accerlerator. (no oil)
Psalm 119:169-175 169May my cry come before you, O LORD; give me understanding according to your word. 170May my supplication come before you; deliver me according to your promise. 171May my lips overflow with praise, for you teach me your decrees. 172May my tongue sing of your word, for all your commands are righteous. 173 May your hand be ready to help me, for I have chosen your precepts. 174I long for your salvation, O LORD, and your law is my delight. 175Let me live that I may praise you, and may your laws sustain me. 176 I have strayed like a lost sheep. Seek your servant, for I have not forgotten your commands. Romans 5:3-4 3 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope.
I stared at WS in bewilderment when she informed me that she told the SQ that I would do sharing since Pastor wasn't around.
!!!
I was eager, YES, eager but !!!
actually parable of talents is at Luke
Haha, I was trembling at heart asking God to guide me as I shared the parable of the sinful woman.
It was great that the message was send to the girls. Value of heart VS actions
Good job! Woosh!
hahaha
can you believe it? nevermind if you don't understand. Thank God! WOOSH.
tattoo lyrics is well written, doesn't apply to me yet though. All thanks to LYNN, it was on her blog ages ago.
Drills was exhausting. I am sure the girls would agree with me. The terrible fact is that, I couldn't move on with what I wanted but they learnt a lot today in drills.
PBB, at the age of 18. I can still go if I want to I heard. Great, A levels next year and...
it's not about studies... I am passionate but passive. A leader is not supposed to be passive but I am.
my dream was DI and I got it. And the DI test was, urgh, giving me nerves and stress.. but the end result was sweet. lol
Did you do it knowingly or not? because if you didn't realise... I was, wondering why.
Hui Ling 040491
really really wants 'Marrying Mozart'
Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
-bear given by church RACHEL CHAN WORE DRESS.
I love this. Yea I cropped it. Hehs.
