I called my boss who was enjoying in BeiJing today. I really really didn't mean to spoil her trip by keep on disturbing her butI keep making mistakes! ARH. I really if I am up to this PA job. It's something which requires high level of discipline and obedience to the mind. Compared to doing drills, drills is really nothing. That just requires discipline to your body which is really nothing. Arh. I keep telling myself I can never never, EVER succeed in, or rather, submitting a no error-insurance submission. It's really hard. I don't know when will I ever be like my trainers. It's already 2 months? Turning 3. I feel like asking everyone to give me one more chance. After I settle the Memo for September's submissions, any other insurance submissions starting from Oct, I will die die make sure there's no underwriting. If there is, I will punish myself. I didn't understand why my boss was so angry receiving 'emaios' until I used her laptop. When I looked through my mistakes, those things that I missed out writing, I COULD HAVE FILLED IN THEM! I simply just ignore and think 'Ha, nothing will happen' and here I am staring at tons of memos waiting for me to meet up with clients and delaying their protection. I FEEL DAMN BAD. Plus, April and Joanne explained to me that the clients are really innocent to get these delays because my relationships problems affected me. That smack me in the face and wake me up. I finally understand the importance of ensuring nothing is missed out.

I know I must have disappointed her and her by a lot. I am so horrible right. arhh. Especially when they are really awesome people I can learn so much from.