I don't know what to say here.

I miss and worry for LYNN.
I kinda wonder how is HIPPO.
I want to study with SOK again, soon, and take back my blackie. Ha.
I am very excited for GB camp. Like super duper excited? if we can have crazy night walk.
I feel confused about my choices, uncertain about the future.
I just realised, what I see on TV do happen to reality, I just mustered all my courage to admit I have that barrier of trusting and loving someone.
I don't miss RX, or maybe I do. I don't know, just bury the past.
I really want to spend more time with my PW group members, of course, I doubt they really care ha or my girlish traits are working up. urgg
I feel tired for taking up so many jobs and unable to focus but I am not going to give up any.
I don't understand why I come to this point.
I don't care what the people think when I happily worship the Lord during chapel.
I still feel down because I cannot hang out with my SFC people as often as I can.
I appreciate having Christian friends around, like really glad to have them.
I feel hopeless, yet hopeful too. Ha.
I never expect myself to have this strong desire to want to be with belle, WS, SM so much.
I didn't know or rather, I didn't realise I am now one who goes, this is right, must go this way.
I lied today and I sweared yesterday accidently.
I surprised myself by not wanting to do chi.

As a food IC, I am yet wanting to do games more than food. OH YA. Let me share with you what SM and WS did... Anyway ignore emo words

SM, WS, HL

my mum wanted to disown me yesterday
(crakles)
(stare)
WTH she said that and you laughed
I didn't mean to! She said it so calmly like... lol I am sorry
how dare you! you heartless!!!
ha, but today she loves me again (grins)

(ws came back with her dinner)
WAA, how can I lose to you? OK, I must go buy food since you buy le. SM... Go with me leh!
EH! Then leave me here alone. SOBS
-.-
Ok, then SM what do you want?
MacChicken, upsize
upsize drink/fries or upsize everything?
(laughs)
no, MacChicken student meal, if they say upsize say ya
(blank look)
huh? okok I go
(keep looking back they waved I walked back to them)
I want fillet student meal
YOU THINK I ASAM ARH? LOL
(blur look)
okok I write down for you
(took a paper write down the follwing words
Good evening Mdm, what would you like to order? oh fillet student meal? upsize? ya. =.=)
(I squated and laughed.When I was about to leave, SM grabbed my shirt and accidently stepped on my slipper so I hopped away. embarassing! and all 3 started LOLing)

serious chat by SM and WS
aiyo I scared I will be hungry leh
(huh, we are having dinner leh, why later still hungry? *iwastryingtolistentothem)
Ya lor, I think so too. How ar?
Later she takes the food, finishes them then comes back to us telling us that the vendor has no more stock
(laugh and puke/ spill some drink)
(enlightened)
WEI!!
(and I slapped SM on her back. apparently they were talking about me being food IC)
They sound so serious looked so serious but they were suaning me! urgg.

How ar? I think we won't get to eat MAC too.
urggggg

seriously. Oh and I reminded SM that this time all of us are taking roles which we never tried.
And she said
" that's why in previous camp we were never hungry."

RAAAAA!!!!

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