I am spiritually tired again.

Well, but I see things clearer each time but the more I see, the more I ask.

And while I am waiting for an answer, I doubt, I believe.

I haven't finish listening to the total surrender sent by Chesed. I barely listened thrice of the first 24 minutes.

But I know, I am being stubborn all over again.

you give, then you take back, you give, then you take back
YEA, how you know I am doing that?

I am not brooding over my results anymore, great news ain't it?

I really hate Newton's third law, quite a few unhappy things surfaced, beyond my control and attempt to hide them.

Maybe I have no life in JC but I see different people, as in, in secondary school, it seems like we are the same, we share same love to teachers, same love for our school, similar way of getting high but in JC, everyone is so different and no one, no one, decide to love again.

The above sentence was abit too long.

There are people who are so oblivious to others' feelings, there are people who gave their all to show that they care. There are people who shut themselves to books,(and I really meant, SHUT->locked up) and there are those who still have fun amid stress. ( i think)

There are hypocrites and sincere people.

I am, not used to that, seeing these strangers everyday with no hint of friendiness or anyone initating to smile.

I am bias and focusing on some people only alright.

WAIT, but I remembered my VP telling us to blog happy things.

lol. I don't know what to say. I guess, I just want to say, I am determined not to give up. As in, I am determined to work harder, to be smarter to be more ignorance to mean and evil things around me but be the best that I can.

I am not going to give up GB because I love the girls and it's a family. Do you think I will give up working for my sisters' growing process? I am not going to moan and groan despite the stress or business coming ahead. Haha.

And of course, I will never give up God even if it means giving up my precious things. It easier said than done but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (<- No mistake, it's a verse)

SFC. God didn't put me there because He wants me to be in it just like that. He wants me to know Him so much better and bring what I learnt to our company.

I don't think joining any other CCAs can help me to lead worship and share God with GB girls. =)

These things are great because I have hope.

Stay hopeful, stay positive. It's not the end of your life.
There are things that may happen which may cause you to detour from your way to your dreams but so? That doesn't mean you can't walk back, all it takes is COURAGE.

WTH, I doubt you read my blog.

As for me, I was telling myself, God won't love someone more just because he got extra rank point and bless him more, but He loves us because we are His children AMEN!

woosh. Somehow, I think I am a bit obsessive doing these.

LOL.

I MISS SM, I don't deny that. Haha. shhhh...
and xixi too.
and kiki. =)

AND RACH! NO DIRTY TOILETS!!!!!! MY GOSH! HAHA!

I really look forward to mum's nod to allow me to attend church. And I look forward in joining Rach's church, even a day and perhaps Miss Leong's too. Woosh!

And I wish that these can happen this year, just let me be a little bit more hopeful...

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