URGGGG. I have no idea what went wrong totally which I can't seem to fix it back. Everything felt so screwed up. Gosh. Do you know why I went to the front on Sunday? I felt that I had fall back too much and I totally forgot my first love. How was it like? I remembered the times where words like "Thank You for stopping the rain!" came out so naturally but it isn't happening now. What went wrong? I know I've been asked to commit more, it's time to take a higher step but there is some oppression or something that is stopping me. I tried to backpedaled down the memory lane and picked out hints that may shown transformation was happening or something. I couldn't. It has been a empty life and nothing can be worse than that. URGG!
I want to go Bath in England and Safranbolu in Turkey! Gosh I love the design of the buildings and the climate in this 2 country! Not only that the places there are so serene and peaceful, the people there are so helpful and friendly. Moreover, they are so cultured and that kind of society just capture my heart like instantly. aarhh. I should bring LYNN to Bath where she can explore the Jane Austen Centre to get her books. Haha. A bit crazy eh..
but I am trying hard, probably not hard enough... I want to go back to the first love.
Know what... before Kelvin shared his story... during worship I was already rebukked for not making good use in what I have that is in abundance - love. The gift of salvation, I never thought of sharing it with the ones that I love... or rather, it slipped out of my mind that kinda thing. That shouldn't be it. Gosh. Something just pierced through my soul before he sang the song he wrote. Everything falls into place, or has it not? -pardon me, I probably just cannot accept how much change I am going through and no matter what you are going to tell me to convince me that this change is absolutely fine, it still take my part to decide to believe and respond- HOW?!urgg
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really really wants 'Marrying Mozart'
Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
